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Thursday, June 30, 2005
im here to blog at ziqin's request. ahaha what to say? so many happened in the short period of 2 days, had been totally confused and sad and guilty all at a time :( life is so excited yeah... life is conplicated, a few irritating people always !*#&(@$*&@$ ok nvm. i shall not butt in otherwise in the end i drag myself inside. haha yiling's advice. i shall heed. adoi u have better be honoured man :D Monday, June 27, 2005 was too tired yesterday to leave any messages other than stating the events happened. shall do that now :) shangxue: you have been part of my life since mid-march till now, not only a small part, for that matter. although we have many conflicts in between, those are still wad makes up shangxue isnt it? we have been through our ups and downs, we laughed, we cried. all the times we spent together, are now merely beautiful and fond memories. shangxue wasn bonded the first month, but after xiaopin, we felt ourself getting closer to one another and everyone had familiarised themselves with the ju-mates. im very glad we did cos if we didn, we wouldn have a happy qihang tog. jovena: although u became zong jian (and brutally left us behind), i could still feel ur belonging in the ju. whenever i think of the shangxue cheng yuan, i would think of you. you have been a really great daoyan for xiaopin, and like i mentioned in ur qihang message, you were kind of our "protector", preventing us from sadness and stuff. i miss you, you are a great president and daoyan. danfong: sometimes i just wish i could make you less responsible so i wun look up to you so much. wad crap yeahs. haha. you said u would be fully commited to shangxue after the hols start, and u really did it. its like we can see how much u put in for diao-ing the ju to improve. you were really concerned for the ju, and even though ure a first timer as a daoyan, u were really great. on other times while talking to you, you always surprise me. i hope we wun stop communicating even after shang xue has bi ye-ed. i miss you loads already. hope to have chance to work with you again next yr yeahs :) hweepeng: you are that other one who surprises me with your machine-gun words and super neutral attitude. you have always given me the impression of kind, gentle and demure girl. just look at the way and speed you eat :D sometimes ure just plain cute but all the while u always give useful advices to the ju, finding out mistakes and correcting them. other than that i know you love to burst people's bubbles. :( i will really miss you loads after wei lao. cos i would be losing a wonderful and caring daoyan. jenny: i got to know you through this ju, and i talk to you so often i dunno wad to put down here. but i can say that you really brightened up my life loads with your ping-personality. you have always been blur and cute did you know that? well i wun be missing you cos now i can call you my bestie and if i ever do miss you i can just call you :D haha! yay its so great ure a red bellie. i love you chen xiao ping! fiona: i can see that ur acting has really improved since our first paiju! now u really acted very irritated and bossy to the extreme! congrats :) its ur first time in a ju yeahs, i know u were pretty excited to be in. its great to be in the same ju as you, its an honour cos u act so well. shangxue's gonna be so sad when we all separate :( i dun wan !! i want to go back to 2 days ago, where we are still anticipating for the next day, our big day. i will miss you as that bossy monitor lin hui ying! phebe: got to know you through shangxue and the multiple bus-86 trips home :) ure really funky and i dunno if we will drift after wei lao. i guess we will larh :( i hope u feel attached to shang xue in one way or another, although u are a feeling-less person. haha. im glad to have longmeixin as my classmate! treasure ur crystal ball, may you be reminded of the happy memories you had in shangxue everytime you see it. i love you! qians: its our 2nd yr as the same ju. thinking of you, i recalled how i got to know you. can i say its fate? i remember it was last yr's 2nd auditions when i met you, i paired up with you and another person for xinyang jacqueline and deborahs ju, and went tog with you to 2nd audit for wobingle. i thought that was the end of our fate but i was surprised to see you for the first wobingle paiju, and summore we were both playing nurses:D i miss those times, but now we have a brand new memory tog, no longer our doctor and nursey but denglaoshi and feifei :) call it fate and make me happy. haha. now that shangxue has bi-ye-ed, im brutally stabbed by the info that ure stepping down. for two years you have been part of my huahui life, a relatively big part. i cant say we're close but we definitely had great memories together. i would really miss you after weilao, after xubie. i hope you will too. love. cuis: i didn ever talk to you only until camp last yr, and i thought u were a great leader for youxi :) at that time i would hesitate to even speak in ur presence but now i see you as a friendly and funny person. i dunno if u have ever had some misunderstandings or anything insatisfied with me, but im sorry if i ever made you angry. shangxue has already separated. after wei lao, i believe it would be seldom even for saying hi purposes. but even if we wun ever talk after this, im glad to have to be in the same ju as you. thanks for all the happy memories you gave me, i'll treasure them :) weiling: haha, although u dun ever understand wad im trying to tell you, im glad to have known a sweet person like you. thanks for your littlemissgreedy story book. its really cute! :D really suits feifei. owell. jiayou for ur 'o's yeahs! be sure to be the quan guo zhuang yuan! i'll be proud of you :D thats all. thanks shangxue. i love you. Saturday, June 25, 2005 qihang is gone in a flash. mixed feelings. i dunno whether to be happy or sad :( happy: it was really successful :) sad: shangxue's gonna separate and we wun be saying more than hi and bye :(((( anyway. the whole day was really GREAT! once i stepped into the fam lounge i was bombasted with all the ppl i know, all excited for the upcoming event. ate siowyu and maple's koniaku jelly, it was really great! :D den started giving out presents :) i love ppl's reactions at receiving gifts :)) anyway, continued to give out my notes in the dance studio den started taking lots of pics, but i feel like i took less than xiaopin :/ had a dry run, but nobody felt in character :( had another pretty silent ju lunch but still feel the belonging all the same :)oh did i mention phs uniform and stnicks tie really dun fit? hahaha. got back to dance studio to get ready for the real thing, was really rush, and everything past in a blur. and out of nowhere we are backstage preparing to go onstage already. we started. it was in a blur, i wasn really nervous, i just stayed myself(FEIFEI!). phebe's cloth didn cover my head :( but at least i threw it back at her head :D and fiona was really good at linchang cos qians came in very late! den everything went smmothly until we ended. just like that, qihang ended. for us. being the first ju, we finished qihang the earliest. back in the dance studio, the daoyans gathered us. they scolded us, saying "it isnt a bad performance larh, but i was not happy about it. you all blahblahblha....." den tell us all the bad things we did. den, danfong suddenly said "i just lied" we all boooooooed and screamed and started crying, cos we really thought we disappointed the daoyans and screwed up our only chance of performing. but we were still glad in the end, when the daoyans said it was our best performance :) den they gave us the presents they made, den i realise they have been preparing the present since before xiaopin. the pictures took were before xiaopin and the latest one they took was last week. it was really very nice, me fion and jenny are like cannot control anymore, tears roll T.T haha. danfong and huiping you two rock!! xiemu was really fun, 2 ppl fell. so predictable ahha. our slogan for daoyan was "DAO YAN, WO MEN AIAIAIAIAI, SISISISISI, AISIAISIAISIAISIAISI, -TAKES IN BREATH- NI!" haha, damn fun! gave them the shirts and the files with our personal messages inside. sang qihang ge and huige, den everything is over. after a terrible rushed packing up, we rushed to the fam lounge and got a debriefing from jovena. den shangxue(jovena included) went on our way to have our ju dinner. i guess its our last ju dinner? :( decided on angmokio central, we knew te amo was going to pizza hut but we didn see them so we thought they didn come. in the end we were led to the tables right next to them, separated by a pillar. haha! poor fiona, she had to wait so long for her food to be served, i finished mine when she got hers :/ cuishan made her own delicacy, called the cuishan's splatter. haha. was quite artistic larh. but now to think of it, cuis should be li feifei, aspired to be chu shi! :D went home separately after that, took 86 home with phebe. as in, HOME WITH PHEBE. i went to her house while waiting for my dad to fetch. while on the way to her house, i thought i saw this white unsolidified "thing" flash across between me and phebe, i didn think too much but i just mentioned it to make the "qi fen", in the end, phebe said she actually felt this wind rushing through between us!!! WE WERE FREAKED OUT MAN. its not nice to joke, its really scary!!! after a few minutes my dad came, den i came back. now i feel so sleepy, i dunno wad time i'll sleep till tomms! :D lets see larh. anyway, QIHANG 2005 ROCKED!!! congrats to SHANG XUE, TE AMO, A.GAIN, BENGTA AND TATA!! along with DAOJU, JI SHU, HUAZHUANG AND XUAN CHUAN! and of course, XING ZHENG!! THANKS TO ALL HUAHUI PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO MADE MY 2ND QIHANG WONDERFUL :)) I LOVE ALL!! kan wo man huai li xiang wang zhe shi jie li mian chuang zhan zai guang da de tai shang jin qing yan chu san fa guang mang da jia qi ju yi tang xin lian xin shi xian meng xiang bao zhe tong yi ge xi wang gong tong jin tui zhan chi fei xiang qi hang qi hang bi qi lai zhen shi bu tong fan xiang gen zhe wo men rang xin qing ben fang chen jin zai kuai le de shi guang woah~ wo de xin he ni yi qi ben fang mei ren neng dang zai wo de qian fang lu yue nan zou wo yue jian qiang woah. qi hang WAH! wu fa dang ta de mei li bu xun chang hua hui tuan jie shi li liang gao sheng huan hu -xi1 qi4- ZHE SHI WO MEN DE QI HANG!!! Friday, June 24, 2005 THE BIG DAY! QIHANG 2005 ZHI QING SI YI YUN! HUAHUI JIAYOU!!! SHANGXUE!!! TE AMO! AGAIN! BENGTA! TATA! DAO JU! XUAN CHUAN! JI SHU! HUA ZHUANG! XING ZHENGS! WE SHALL GIVE OUR BEST FOR QIHANG! Your inner soul is calling for help! You always seem so depressed, lonely, and feel like an outsider. You may have a cold, sad exterior, but in all reality you are hurt inside and bottling up all of your anger. Everyday you wonder why are you still here when there is nothing left? You use to once be a happy, loving soul, but it was damaged by 'them' and seems like it never can be fixed again. However, you have yet seemed to realize that there are people out there that deeply care for you. They secretly have a thing for you because they find you to be dark, mysterious, and full of secrets, not to mention being the prettiest person in the world! You like to enjoy your time by yourself expressing your feelings through forms of art, and enjoy nice quiet scenaries that just dazzle your mind with awe. Your bedroom is basically your sanctuary where you can hide out, hidden from those who gave you all of the pain. Try to loosen up and have some fun! Never start frowning because you never know who's falling in love with your smile :) What Is Your Inner Soul Trying To Say? brought to you by Quizilla i actually enjoy sad results. no idea why. hurr. but im not pretty lorh. wad bullshit. todae had paiju. yupps. we came early in the morning, abt 45min earlier than paiju time to discuss abt going to geylang to buy durians for daoyan. jenny had fever and couldn come :( paiju was qt funny today, phebe tried abt 50 times to throw the black cloth over my head :D and she added a part where she had to breathe in deeply. was damn funny, we stuck there for how long, and cuis' hen duo hen duo tou fa part too. she sounded cute larhs! went to geylang. ate. took neos. cant say more :D danfong and her business. hohoho. so funny! (you should know wad im talking abt if u were there) Monday, June 20, 2005 can you tell me not to believe these? it is exactly wad i said and what people told me. i think i've taken a liking to all quizzes :/ You kill for What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures] brought to you by Quizilla Your Beauty lies Some Things Element: Gemstone: Quote: Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::.. brought to you by Quizilla today's full dress rehearsal. supposed to reach macs at 0830hrs but i reached at 8.. walked all the way from sch to macs, cos my dad dropped me there :/ qians reached at 0730?? i didn even know if macs would be open at that time :/ but i guess it was. fion and jenny came early too. danfong was qt amused by our "kiasuism" haha hurr. weiling phebe and cuis reached after the daoyans, cuis was..... LATE? haha. i dread wad we would do tomms :S we ate too slow so at 0905hrs we were still at macs haha. we thought we would be scolded badly : we were late as a whole JU and all of us are carrying some sort of drink or food from macs. but we reached to realise everyone was locked out of drama studio. anyway the door finally opened and we settled down. the li shis began teaching the qihang ge but i found all the actions i learnt from last yr like totally... OPPOSITE? i strongly remember all the hand actions start from the right and every time face the right first! i rmb, veryvery strongly cos when i day dream i sing the song, i wun do the whole thing wrong for one yr without knowing it right? funny -.- full dress was great as a whole, didn get to watch much of the video, thats sad. but i saw so many bengta ppl (im veryvery jealous! -looks at chuwen-). everything went in a flash but i felt very into the role today :) its a happy feeling, im supposed to feel happy :D te amo was so sweet as usual, i found again confusing but i finally understood in the end, it was very meaningful. and bengta improved like SO MUCH i felt like i was watching it the first time (: ta ta was great, esti rocked! after that i had lunch with the sec ones (or rather i watched them have lunch), felt damn out of place but all of them are nice ppl. oh and that stupid lala threw an ice onto my face! like so rude larh! :( went to plaza sing, kinda followed them all ard den finally settled to day dream in spot light when they did their shirt. many redbadge appeared, abt er... 10? all come at diff times, i think we all got fate or smth :D went home with ming ee and slept like a pig :) jiayou for our 2nd and last full dress tomms, all frontstage, backstage and anyone who's involved! Sunday, June 19, 2005 i cried thinking about it. my family spent another supposedly happy occasion - father's day - like any other normal day. as well as mother's day or any family member's birthday. we didn even mention it. sometimes i wonder, why issit my family's nature is like that, we never do celebrate any happy occasion, not even a gift or cake on birthdays? it is not that i man yuan all these... but today, i thought abt it, its my dad's special day, and we didn do anything for him. he is the sole breadwinner of the family, he slogs hard, and his job isnt the easiest. over the years after he took on this job, i found him getting skinnier and scrawnier, but i couldn bring myself to even tell him to take care or anything. in fact, this kind of words is never heard around the house, not even between my brothers and me. on mother's day and father's day, i just spent like a normal sunday, eating, spend my time in my room and not talking more than 100 words to my parents. not that we arent communicating. but unless we have a topic, we cant just start talking. the atmosphere is never right. looking at my dad today, i saw more white hair, more wrinkles and more worn-out that i've ever noticed. i felt a sudden rush of emotion; i wanted to tell him, i love you, and happy father's day, and to take care. somehow i just felt my eyes welling up and before anyone could see, i rushed into my room to cry. i rmb those few days i went to msia, me my dad and mum slept in the same room. for the whole day i didn talk to them, i spent my time playing with my cousins. while sleeping on the top bunk as they slept below, i thought of not recognising them and felt very homesick. i desired nothing more than to go back to singapore and sleep in my own house. it was a peculiar feeling. when i was in msia, i felt like i have neglected my parents, and got irritated with them for no reasons. i feel bad, i feel miserable, at that moment i so badly wanted to tell them that i love them, but... i just could not. i suddenly felt very distant, i miss them like i miss... i just missed them alot alot. oh.. i dunno what im trying to say. i really want to kick away my fear of saying i love you to them... to my family members. i dunno wad to do. now.. i just want them to be happy, i wish for them to take care. happy father's day, dad. i love you. Saturday, June 18, 2005 MONS im using opera and theres problems with navigation at ur blog so i leave a msg here for u yeahs? hmm OF COURSE i rmb and WANT the deal to watch mvp and xi jie! i dun mind crashing ard anywhere as long as its with you! i miss you too! sixteen days is too long. u miss qihang by a teeny bit! thats so bad. but u can catch up for xubie right! :Di cant wait for u to come back. and yupps. Friday, June 17, 2005 todae's tech run isnt too bad, but i guess it isn very great larh. i hope everything will go well for our first full dress on mon! speaking of that, i think danfong is out to kill. we're supposed to reach macs for breakfast on time, at eight thirty. one minute late equals to one round ard the track. run, not walk. haha, i hope i dun over sleep that day. and JENNY! haha ure in danger. LOLS! qihang in a week. just a jiayou note with inspiration from cuis. SHANGXUE!! jenny phebe qianya fiona cuishan and weiling! and of course danfong and huiping! jiayoujiayoujiayou! :D Thursday, June 16, 2005 In your eyes, people see shards of ice everywhere... You are cold and distant, pushing away people that love you and truely care for you! You want to be able to reach out and love them but... You can't for some reason... You're just too.... You :P Underneath that cold exterior lies a warm, happy soul that wants to let loose and have fun! Your sanctuary would probably be anywhere up high where you can look down on life below you, like the roof of an apartment building... Your eyes resemble a saddened, crestfallen person seeking out attention, but doesn't know how to handle it. However, you do find comfort from your friends, they're always there for you, and they know the REAL you :) Even though you do seem rather cold, you can be very protective over something you truely believe in or love. Let go of that "tough" rep and just be you! It's impossible to live life without some fun and love ^-^ What Lies Behind Your Eyes? brought to you by Quizilla i dunno why. i enjoy doing quizzes that fascinate me. Congratulations xiaowei, you are...  Scarlett Ting of joewei.blogspot.com You are independent, smart and beautiful. Its too bad you don't see that yourself because life's little difficulties brought down a lot of your self confidence. As a result, you talk cryptic and you don't trust people easily. You care a lot for your friends and your loved ones, sometimes even more than you care for yourself, although they don't always seem to appreciate it. Don't let that affect you. As the saying goes, you don't miss the water till the well runs dry. So hang in there, you're a star in the making. issit me, or issit that the quizzes i take are all so accurate? they relate to me -.- anyway, i ripped this off yuensin's blog. haha! Are we friends or are we not? You told me once, but I forgot... So tell me now and tell me true, So I can say, I am here for you. Of all the friends I've ever met, You're the ones I won't forget... And if I die before you do, I'll go to Heaven And wait for you I got your back You got mine, I'll help you out Anytime. To see you hurt To see you cry, Makes me weep And wanna die. And if you agree To never fight, It wouldn't matter Who's wrong or right. If a broken heart Needs a mend, I'll be right there To the end. If your cheeks are wet From drops of tears, Don't you worry, Let go of your fears. Hand in hand Love is sent, We'll be friends Till the end the above poem is dedicated to: weiling, yanbing, elaine, xuezhen, chuwen, jenny, qianya, monica, anges, jiayi, phebe, june, joey, elizabeth and sophialing. thats all for the moment. just people i would miss badly if they suddenly disappear :) Wednesday, June 15, 2005 WOW! I CAN LIKE FINALLY BLOGGGGGG!!! thanks so much to joey, introduced opera to me. it can like totally replace internet explorer yay. i have so much to talk about. qihang's coming, i dun feel it somehow :/ thats sad. i want the qihang spirit!! but anyway pai ju is getting better, we have more mo qi alr! :D can hear from our "JIU SHI TA!!!!" poor jenny was being locked in and couldn come to pai yesterday. we had our ju lunch which consisted of lohmee and truth or dare. i think qians is damn pitiful. a lil boy even ran away from her haha. we were let off early so phebe suggested we go compass point to walk ard, basically is to keep her company and watch her buy things larh :D. cuis and weiling were there, it was only for abt half an hour before we all go home alr. and i want to blog abt the steamboat outing!!! -screams- the day before, i last minute knew of the tech run and i nearly cried thinking i cant go for the outing. but in the end it ends real early so i could catch up with them. sorry ppl to make yall wait :( anyway it was elaine weiling yanbing and me, we met at bishan mrt and went to orchard. i instantly felt like i was sec one; we were all wearing onecharity class tee and all were familiar faces (: and kill that yiling larh, dun want to come. the first place we went is cine, where we had our meal of kfc, the double dunno wad meal :D i was at an advantage, my chicken was the biggest and my bone was the smallest. meaning i ate the most meat larh! :D den we went to buy the ticks for monster-in-law. after that yanbing and elaine had a whale of a time shopping at heeren while me and weiling stayed outside every shop and chat :D we talked abt alot of things, im glad we had a chance to :) we took neos, and IM SO DAMN SORRY FOR THAT NEO I SCREWED!!! bahhh. went to catch monster-in-law. it rocks larh! j-lo is darn pretty (: the thing is damn sweet at the ending. anyway, after that we rushed down to marina bay, hoping we wun be too late. i was hopeful that we could bowl a few games before dinner but in the end the bus stood on us, it came after wad seemed like an hour. we settled on arcade and found this relle cool machine which is the drum set. my god larh! that's basically my favourite instru!! drum set! played for 2 rounds and yanbing died on her turn. hahha. so sad! and the car racing machine ate my 50cent coin, leaving me to watch others race scornfully. after that was steamboat (!!!) we chose the one with red tables and chairs. it was pretty funny larh, the 3 steamboat places next to each other had colour themes, there was red yellow and green. we were fated with red cos me yanbing and elaine all from red house. weiling's the outcast :DD we sat next to a bush(the other three's idea) and took chicken soup(the other three's idea). i wanted tomyan and i wanted to sit inside. aye im so out of place huh? but the steamboat was a HORROR, not because of the food but beecause of my sweet blood which attracted not only flies but MOSQUITOES!! i had to keep my leg shaking the whole meal,which is not only obscene but tiring too. i got a few mosquito bites before i realised and spent half the meal suffering, wanting to scratch but cant. we ended with a potong icecream; i got yanbing's pity and she took the corn one from me and gave me the red bean one. lol. the walk back to the bus stop was pretty great, i had a nice time scaring them with more ghost stories although it made them barf in the end. :P joking. they didnt larh. so the steamboat day ended like that!! and now, i counted in total FOURTEEN mosquito plus ant bites. while one stops itching, another one starts. so irritating!! let see. four on my right ankle, three on my left shin, two on my right shin, one on my left arm, one on my right arm and three on my back(i suspecet ants). poor thing yeah! hohoho its a long entry my typing is getting better haha. just want to end like that: WEILING! 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